Sunday, January 13, 2013

No Video :(

I am an educator and facilitator for young girls that have the meanest spirits. My job is to go in and encourage, uplift and inspire these ladies to love their selves and aspire to do great things. I struggle for a reason because I KNOW how GOOD GOD is and I can't talk about religion or anything spiritual. I give it my best though but these girls hate their selves. They think they are ugly. They worry about what others think about them and I am not going to lie I worry about what others think about me as well but not to the degree where I get depressed or anxious.

I made up my mind a couple of years ago that GOD made me in His image and that everything He makes is GOOD. I made up in my mind that I was fearfully and wonderfully made. I made up in my mind that God has purposed me for great things and that I have HIM as my EVERYTHING.

This video is so touching and encouraging. It makes me wonder about all the issues I had or have and is it really an issue. I have the choice to choose how I feel at any moment or any day. I have the choice to choose how today will be different because of my attitude. My situation may be a bit messed up, my bills may be piling up, I may not have the dream job or the finances to do what I want but I have a choice make the best of any given moment.

Why give up on everything around you because your one dream is not happening. There is so much more out there and maybe your dream will come true.

I feel that God gives you what you need when you need it. Therefore you know God Promised to supply all of your needs according to his Riches and Glory (Phil 4:19) so DO NOT BE like the Thessalonians (2 Thessalonians 3:6-18) and stop working, waiting for the promises to come to your door.

Use this time and choose to do good for you, the people that love you, and others that have no idea who you are.

Watch the video and tell me what you think!

Choose LIFE!

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Message/Vision Board

"And the LORD answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain on tables, that he may run that reads it" Hab. 2:2.

A group of women from my church got together one evening to create vision boards. These boards were to become the tangible and visual product of how we see our selves and what we want to work towards to in the future. I am a firm believer in having to see things over and over for it to become a part of me. For example, I need to write daily to do lists and if I do not, I am not productive. I am a visual learner and need to see where I am going. Just a couple weeks ago a principle was giving me different times for me to be there and I just did not understand. I was like I need you to write this down so I can see what I need to do. 
I feel a lot of people have no direction because they do not have a vision of their selves in the future times. I work with young girls and they cannot fathom thinking about the future they can only see their right now situation. Thank God we all grow up! 
Well I created my vision board which actually turned into a message board to inspire me. My theme for the year is "...Calleth those things which be not as though they were." Rom 4:17. This scripture kept replaying in my head especially during those times when my husband and I were upset with each other or he was not being what I needed to be at this moment. Times where I struggled with finances, seeing not much funds in there and bills piling up. Iam like GOD I know this is not how it is supposed to be and then I just start speaking things how I would like them to be. "God my bank account will always have money coming into it." God my husband and I will get along and we have a loving, exciting marriage." 99 Chevy Cav you will be a Range Rover"


"Yet we have the same spirit of faith as he had who wrote, I have believed, and therefore have I spoken. We too believe, and therefore we speak." 2 Corinthians 4: 13

I believe for better things in my life, therefore I speak. My message of faith I see everyday. I put it in my head, which gets into my heart, which becomes my behavior and then I am living life how I visioned it.

My message board is a reminder of whats to come, how to think- I think therefore I am. Why brew over the things that will make you sad and depressed you will stay in that state of mind and then only bad things will come your way.

I dare you to envision your life the way you want it, write it down, create a visual. Look at it every day and you can't just look at it you have to start walking the walk becoming your vision. Make it plain! I know God has so much in store for you and your life why not want something grand? 

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Beautiful Woman, Wonderfully Made

I struggled for a very long time and by long time I mean about 25 years to realize that I was beautiful. I allowed for men/boys to take advantage of me not knowingly because I was trying to take advantage of them. End the end I was the one suffering feeling so alone. I thought I could play the game and not get hurt. But I was hurt physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I went and sowed my "royal" oats but those oats were not royal but wild. They harvested bitterness, distrust, unrealistic reality, depression, drunkenness, low exceptions and so much more. 

I realized that I was not hurting anyone but myself. It took a card from my mother with Psalms 139:13-14
    13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
    14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
written in it. However, I brushed it off. But then God spoke through a gentleman which reveled confirmation. He told me that verse and then it clicked. I realized that GOD made me ON purpose WITH purpose. I then calmed my ways out there in the world. I did not completely stop what I was doing but I began to see the value of my life and that I had so much more to live by.
I reflect on all the ways God kept me from hurt and harm and all the danger. It was like I floated through everything and was not TOUCHED by a single thing. I went about 7 years of living in the eye of the storm, I did not see the peace and the quiet all I saw was the dangers all around me. I now know that God was carrying me and telling me this is not what I have for you.

My mother told me when I was younger that I was putting up glasses in the cupboards and leaned on it the wrong way and about 30 glasses fell not on top of me but all around me. Not one single touch.

One day I was driving drunk and high. I drove only about 8 blocks. I knew I could not and should not drive but I did anyways, God made sure I did not run into anything, I parked that car horribly and went home to bed.

I never fit in when I was doing the wrong thing I know because I did not like going out and getting drunk. I did not like the feeling, I did not like feeling like I had no control. I now know that God put something in me, you know, my purpose, because like a bad heart, my body, heart and mind rejected these events.

But God, He protected me and carried me when I was not myself. Once I realized that, I had to ingrain in my mind so it could get into my heart so that it got into my walk and talk that I was fearfully and wonderfully made.