Friday, November 14, 2014

It's the Holidays!!! Here's your Amazon ONLINE GIFT GUIDE!!!

I am from Minnesota and I love to shop but when it is winter season all I want to do is hibernate. The roads are paved in ice, it gets dark at 4:30 pm and there are crazy drivers. So online shopping comes easy for me! Amazon is an awesome place to get all your shopping done! Ladies, here check out all the amazing deals Shop Amazon Fashion - Women's Holiday Wish List
And fellas, I couldn't leave you out! Check out things for you and tell your ladies to look at your list! Shop Amazon Fashion - Men's Holiday Wish List Well have fun shopping! I gotta get my list ready for Santazon, get it, Santa/Amazon lol! I crack myself up!

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Tights, Tights and Leggings!

So I found this website called Lookbook Store online. Saw these amazing leggings and tights. What do you think

 What about these: My fave right here! I need these!

Although I have some juicy thighs, I will have to try these out! Let me know what you think! Check them out:

Monday, August 11, 2014

Proverbs 31 DIVA! Petal Locs

Yes I could have smiled but um, I didn't :( 

I will smile now!  Not my son but my buddy! Hey Malik! 

The Roaring 20's: Reflection of my Preparation Year's pt. 3

I am creeping up to my 30th birthday and am becoming discouraged... This happened last year as well. I do not know what to do and when because I am on everybody else's schedule. Kind of feels like I was born only to serve others on my birthday :) Maybe that is a good thing.


My past has been so vital to who I am today and who I will be in the future! It has been and is exciting reflecting on my life! God has been so amazing! I have been through a lot.

I did some really stupid stuff and God has kept me. I was reflecting some time ago and I saw the Hand of God all through out my life protecting me from dangers seen and unseen! Even as a child, God really kept me so I know I have some things in store that are and will be great! One example is that I was about 9 years old and I was sitting on the kitchen counter putting the glasses in the cabinet and all of a sudden the shelf fell and all of the glasses fell AROUND me. I was not touched.

Another example is that when I was in 1st grade I was in a truck with a friend and her dad, we were going to softball practice. I didn't shut the door good and didn't have my seat belt on and we turned the corner and I fell out. Only a scrape on my elbow and landed on my tummy. I do not remember falling out until I was on the ground. I was scared that was it. Got up walked into the ambulance and was FINE! Can you see God's hand protecting you through out your life?

In the years 22 and 23, I started going back to church and singing in the choir. I missed that. I grew up in the church and was religious! I tried dating but wasn't really successful. Guys for some reason was not trying to be in a RELATIONSHIP with me :( 

  • Lesson 1: Denials are lifesavers! This is something I learned actually starting college all the way up until my last boyfriend. This lesson can go across any area of life. I personally was not "Putting Out". Most guys that tried to get with me 90% of the time only wanted sex. Every time I showed interest in a guy and I told them I was not having sex they disappeared. Man think about all the emotional baggage and even physical baggage I saved. I was weeding people out. If you look at denials as lifesaver's you will be a much happier camper. Many get distraught and it does not have to be that way. 
I was finishing up my bachelors degree and it only took me 5.5 years! Remember how I was telling you I was failing and withdrawing? I forgot to mention I kept changing my degree. 

  • Lesson 2: If you are not ready to go to college don't force it! I am glad I stuck it out but those classes are expensive! I switched my degree, first it was Psychology, then Criminal Justice, and then, Restaurant Management, and the Business Management and then I finished with Business Admin. I was a random girl and if you are not ready to commit then do not! It is a waste of time and money! BUT I DID GET MY Bachelors Dec. 2008! I brought my GPA from 2.0-2.8 which still isn't the best thing. I struggled in those math classes. But I did everything to pass the classes. I didn't fail any after I transferred so that was good! 
I moved back in with my mama when I came back from Orlando. I am the only child so I liked being alone. I worked, went to school, went to church and partied. Although I felt I was GROWN my mama still put her foot down and I had to respect that.
  • Lesson 3: If you cannot respect the persons that are putting a roof over your head then GET OUT! I respected my mama all the time though. I was not the child that yelled at my mom, slam doors or leave. But then my mama also treated me with respect as well. She gave me a curfew. I did miss it a lot. But one thing I did not miss was no matter how late I came in I BETTER BE AT CHURCH. And I was. I drank a lot and would wake with a hangover and still be at church. A hot mess I know but I was there. I had to. My mother was letting me, a "GROWN" woman live in her house FOR FREE, she cooked and bought groceries. I have a problem with parents and children when they cannot communicate and just disrespect each other. If you cannot live by their rules then get your own place.
I was close to the last year of my degree. I was working at a restaurant and I wanted to advance my career. There was the internship that I wanted to be a part of. I was working really hard and I thought that my boss really cared and that she wanted the best for me. I watched all the business interns and I wanted to get into management.She told me to apply and I did. I thought I had a great relationship with the bigger boss but I guess I was wrong. 
  • Lesson 4 and 5: Not everyone REALLY wants to see you succeed and COLOR STILL does play a big role. She kept saying "Yes, he will be getting back to you." or he would say, "Yep I will be interviewing soon. Month went by and I would see new interns and I was not even close to getting an interview. Too me color still is bright as day but people think they hiding in the dark and we cannot see. All those interns were Caucasian. If I recall, I do not remember seeing anyone in a leadership role a person of color. I was heartbroken and was ready for a change. I couldn't be a hostess with the mostess for the rest of my life. I was not being challenged and those people were not trying to hear me which was an eyeopener. I left in July and looked for a new job.
Well stay tuned for more lessons on my roaring twenties, the preparation years. Coming up, I MOVED OUT OF STATE by myself. 

Can you remember when you were 23? What was something major happening in your life?

Peace and Blessings,

Monday, August 4, 2014

The Roaring 20's: Reflection of my Preparation Year's pt. 2

I will be turning 30 in September and I am so excited. My hubby would say, "We are in a good place and it is only going to get better!" Right now we are pretty young, married with no children yet! We have a great relationship with Christ and highly active in the church. We make good money, almost 6 figures. We are givers. College educated, I have my Master's in Educational Leadership and he is completing his Master's in Non-profit Admin. We have great careers in the non-profit field and we are growing together through Christ everyday! I have a small business I am hoping will get bigger and I just enjoy life, traveling and stuff! So I feel like we have a great foundation that will be great as I enter this next decade of life.

As I said before, my twenties was just preparation for the future. I am excited about my future.

When I turned 21, I was participating in the Walt Disney World College Program and they worked us like um, yea they worked us. We had to pay our own rent, buy our own food, buy our own household items and other things. I made $7.25 an hour! So I made about $350 before taxes a week. For me, I was serious about getting my education on, so I signed up for online classes to take while I was in Orlando and got some extra money to live off of. While I was there I met a girl (No Names) who was a virgin and was so serious about her walk with God. She was so inspirational to me. We became great friends. She actually was from Louisiana and that was August 23, 2005. We had just been there for I think a week or two and this happened. She was devastate, she couldn't go home for a while. She was able to to speak to her family that survived, their house though was under water. But through it all she gave me my first lesson in my twenties:

  • Lesson 1: Stay faithful to God despite what you go through. She was a really strong influence in my life. I do not think I ever told her either. But the way she stayed true at such a young age and not question God really helped me stay somewhat close to God. God is so faithful to us even when we do wrong. Just imagine the blessings and favor God will have on you when you also stay faithful to him no matter what the situation looks like. 
My mom really did not let us celebrate Halloween. People may say that it is not an evil "holiday" but I feel that halloween is a gateway to some real evil and perverted ways. I was so glad to have my friend from Louisiana because we both did not celebrate Halloween. But some of my other friends wanted to go out anyways so I just went out which brings me to my next lesson:

  • Lesson 2: The devil and his lil minions and demons are real. That night some spirit crept on me and I had my first real encounter and it was so scary. All I remember thinking was Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. I kept thinking that and I guess I fell asleep and woke up. If you allow even an inch the enemy will pounce on it! So I began to really see evil and the good! 
My work place at Disney World was at Disney Quest- a 5-Story virtual amusement park. Best place ever. This program brought people from all over the world and I met some really cool people and I am sad to say I do not have their contact info and cannot remember first and last names :(  but the next lesson I learned:
  • Lesson 3: Get out the box! Of course people tend to flock to what they are familiar with and never really explore differences. My co-workers, an older lady, an awkward black girl just like myself, this cool white guy and many more cool people. We would go and enjoy the parks together. One day, two of them were like let's go see a movie. I was like sure which movie? They said "Walk the Line". I was like what is that? They were like you don't know who Johnny Cash is? I was like nope! During the movie, I was like huuhhhh what is this!!!! And I was eating little squids and was grossed out! But let me tell you! Ring of Fire is like one of my most "favoristist" songs and I love calamari! See what getting outside of the box, the norm and yourself will expose you to! 
After I completed the Walt Disney Program, I went to visit my grandparents for a couple of days in a little town called Plant City! My grandmother took me to see the ocean for the first time. It was amazing. 

I moved back in with my mommy and she bought Malik my little cousin a dog. THE CUTEST AND SWEETEST dog in the world. I started school and bounced from job to job until I landed on one that I really enjoyed. 

  • Lesson 4: Hard work pays off. As I worked at the Walt Disney World college program, I learned how to really work. Having good work ethics is a must. I was able to get a lot of little jobs because of my experience, I was able to put in words during interviews and they were wowed! They were wowed by my hard work and commitment, I could have easily quit but nope! Went out on my own and owned that experience. 
Well stay tuned for more of my life lessons from my twenties! It was just preparation for my future.

Thank you for reading! 

Cicely Renee

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

How to Travel for Almost FREE!

So my wonderful hubby and I have been so blessed. My husband would say that he has traveled a LOT in the past three years for next to nothing. In Prov 22 it says He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD. And my husband has had a lot of favor since he has met me! LOL It's true! 

God blesses you through other people isn't that right!?!? Right so I feel that when opportunities pop up then you need to take advantage. I LOVE TO TRAVEL! 

Tip #1 Tithe and Give an offering above and beyond. My husband and I are some givers, mostly to build the Kingdom so if you want some of this come to church! 

Malachi 3: 10-11 says: Bring all the tithes into the storehouse,That there may be food in My house,And try Me now in this,”Says the Lord of hosts,“If I will not open for you the windows of heavenAnd pour out for you such blessingThat there will not be room enough to receive it.
“And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakesSo that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground,Nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field,”Says the Lord of hosts;
Ok the tithe just protects the devour from collecting and collecting! I have been tithing and having more money leftover by the next pay period and I have been saving and still enjoying life.  

But remember to sow into the Spirit! So many are sowing into the flesh that only you reap fleshy benefits, health issues, drama, etc. Dr. Charles Stanley explains this principle so well check it out here! God loves a cheerful giver, 2 Cor 9:6 says:
 Now this I say, he who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.

My Pastor always says to NAME that seed. If you go to the store and you want to buy seeds to plant at your house, there are names for those seeds. If you buy sunflower seeds you will not grow daisy's! So be sure to name that seed. My names are: traveling, children, more seed etc... 

My hubby and I have been under some good teaching and anointing. Our Pastor teaches the Word and the Word only. My hubby and I practice the principles and live by faith. We always sow into the man of God and the church. I feel like what you do for others, God will do for you

Tip #2: Be a blessing to someone and they will be a blessing to you! 

Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." Luke 6:38

My Pastor blesses the leaders and others in the church. He has blessed people with vacations. One of the vacations was a cruise! My hubby has been on two and has not paid for it! 

I am just saying be a blessing to people! It is not about what you can get but what you can give! But it is like if people are good to you you want to do something special for them to show your appreciation. 

So my hubby have been flying and staying at some really awesome places for next to nothing.

We just got two vacations for FREE! There was a deposit but we get that back. So one word I will say is: TIMESHARE! 

Tip # 3: Take advantage of the resources out there. Prince, my hubby and I have been to Vegas twice. Stayed in the luxury resorts, yes we had to sit in a Timeshare presentation and no we did not get one. They see 1000's of people a day I am sure they get 100 bites! Don't you eat the samples? Don't you use coupons? This is the same thing but bigger. I just booked two more trips, one to Wisconsin Dales and the other to Cocoa Beach, FL. Yes we have to pay for the flight but hotel stays are expensive as well! 

Know that faith without works is DEAD! So although my trips are not FREE I still get great discounts and deals! So look around take advantage of the resources out there. God will take care of the rest. I feel bad when people look at their situation and think that God does not want us to enjoy life here on earth. God gives us people that have knowledge and resources to use. 

And know that it is not just giving that will bring the blessings, it is living righteously, being obedient and having that personal relationship with God. If you do not believe me go and read some of these scriptures

Monday, July 28, 2014

The Roaring 20's: Reflection of my Preparation Years pt. 1

For some reason I have been thinking quite heavily on my 30th birthday which will be September 10th. I have been trying to figure out what I wanted to do. So many ideas. My top choice was to go to Napa Valley and just go on a wine tasting spree. Unfortunately at this time, the money and timing are not in sync! I have some pretty cool plans though I am excited about.

As I was thinking about my life, I came to the realization that my twenties were just preparation for the rest of my life. I was nervous about turning 30 but thinking about where God brought me from, through and over I am so blessed. I have learned a great deal and have grown so much mentally, spiritually, naturally, emotionally and relationally (NOT A REAL WORD but you get what I mean!).

Over the next few blogs, I will be in reflection mode where I will share different lessons that have made me a better woman, friend, family member, worker, wife and more.

Let's begin at age 20!

It was 2004/5, I was in my second year of college in Marshall, MN. I could not stand it there! I hated the smell of manure and corn fields. It was 3.5 hours away from the Twin Cities. There wasn't really any shopping or night life. The after party was at Wal-mart! The bars was where we all went to party. The black students were seriously divided by student life support groups. TRIO and the BSU. The black boys were with the white girls and it did matter back then! Everyone's hormones were raging and many of the students were losing their virginity, sleeping with each other, and with a lot of people all at once. 

I struggled in my studies and I just wanted to get out of there. I was failing classes, withdrawing and just not taking it seriously. One thing that was great for me were the few friends that I did have and getting my first real live boyfriend! NO NAMES! 

I stayed in the dorm that year because the previous year some girls and I got an apartment and that messed us all up! 

I thank God for the friends I met in Marshall because I would not have survived. That year I had an epiphany! 

  • Lesson 1: Higher Education is not for the broke people that want to stay broke! People go to school to get specialized education to help them in life. I realized I was playing too many games and wasting too much money! I finally realized that these classes I am failing and withdrawing from, I still had to pay for them. I had to get my mind right. When sending resumes they were going to ask for GPA and I was embarrassed to put my GPA on it. If I wanted a decent or good job/career I needed to get my act right.

  • Lesson 2: This degree is not just for me. I would reflect on the day my mama asked me about college and I said I was not going. She attacked me, twisted my arm behind my back and climbed on top of me on the floor. Mind you I was 5'9 200 lbs and my mom 5'6 150 lbs. She tickled me until I said "Ok I am going to college". I remember my mom always saying you have to be better than me. I thank God for my mother. Many parents get jealous of their children or mess them up emotionally and do not want what is best for their children. I remembered that day and realized this degree is not just for me but for my mom, my future children, my future spouse (I wanted to be sure I had something to bring to the table as well), the people who are looking at me for hope and encouragement and people who thought they could not do it!
  • Lesson 3: The friends you came with may not be the friends you leave with! I lost a few close friends that I had went to school with since the 5th grade. Friends grow apart and I feel like that was best for me and everyone who part ways along life. In a lot of my friendships I was like the tag along which was not fun. I did not have a voice. The separation was great. I felt like I had found a certain identity that got me through what I needed to go through. I was sad and confused about our splitting but have not regretted it one bit! 

While in Marshall, I started getting depressed. Like I said I hated it there. The support there from the university was crappy. I had to get away. With those few lessons I understood that I needed to get away! I decided to do the  Walt Disney World College Program and got accepted into it. I also decided that I need to transfer schools and get back on track. 

  • Lesson 4: Sometimes you just need to get away! So many people stay in a place that just is not bringing any fruit. Your unhappy and  just stuck. I had to get away, as I closed out my 20th year of life I went to the most happiest place in the world Disney World. I had a blast, I was rejuvenated, revived and ready for what was next! You just have to get away from the madness and reevaluate life! 
That was the start of the preparation process for my future! It took me 9 years and maybe more but I feel like I am in a great place! 

Stay tuned for more of life's lessons in the 20's! 

Thank you for reading! 

Cicely Renee

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Locin N Rockin!

I go through these phases of where I want to cut off my locs and do something different. My hubby "Forbids" it lol! Well he is lucky that some how after my "I want to do something different" moods, I get inspired and want to try all kinds of styles with my hair. I struggle because the back broke off which seasonally happens even when I had "unloc'd" hair. (Is that a word?) So then I want to hide it and so many of the styles I like are where the hair is up and I get a little self conscious.

I have been bouncing from one hair stylist to the next trying to find someone with reasonable prices and quality work. So I ended up doing my hair which wasn't as professional looking as most but I needed it done.

I found this youtube gal a week ago who does a lot of loc tutorials and I am so excited! I love her attitude, personality and style! Her name is Franchesca here is a style that I think is very nice.  check her website out: and visit her youtube channel! 

Here are some of the styles I have tried and am getting better with everyday:

 Playing with accessories-------------------------------------->
 Side french roll

 Sorry it is so dark :( ----------------------------------------->

Still working on them!!! 
There are many stages in the loc lifestyle and with every stage comes new options! I am really enjoying my hair. What are some of the styles you like to wear?

Friday, June 6, 2014

5 Things you can do while you PATIENTLY wait on GOD

5 Things to do While You Wait on God

Are you waiting patiently for God to move greatly in your life? What is it? Are you waiting for a husband or a wife? Are you waiting for a career change? In my case, children? Many of us have a hard time waiting patiently on God and we end up jumping the gun and trying to make things work. That is where we mess up though, what we can provide for ourselves is not even close to what God has in store. We seem to lose hope and faith that God is going to do it. We get anxious and that is when we get out the will of God. We will mess up our blessings that He has for us.

I know it is so hard to do but if we want it the right way and the best way we have to wait on God. While we wait here are some things we can do while we wait patiently on God.

  1. Volunteer- Find an issue you are passionate about and find an organization to volunteer at. This will occupy your time, give you more things to talk about and meet new people with similar interests.  If you are waiting for a spouse, you might just meet them here! Make sure you look your best!
  2. Take a class- Maybe you are waiting to have children or start a new career, nothing says I am ready like experience and education. Find a class at your local adult education spot where they offer classes that might even be free.
  3. Prepare-The classes are a great way to prepare as well as literally preparing yourself for the next step. Are you waiting on children? Start clearing your house for space for the children. You can start buying clothes and keeping it in a hope chest. That new career, maybe you need a new or new to your wardrobe. Find outfits that fit the job that you are applying for. Waiting on that spouse? My pastor is good for saying live like you have your spouse there with you! Say, “Babe can you bring me some water?”  Or make some room in the closet or get rid of things such as things your ex’s gave you, there is no room for that.
  4. Build the Kingdom- this should always be happening but while you are waiting for whatever go work with your church to help it advance or reach out. Win souls for Christ. Evangelize in the community.
  5. Start a hobby- start something that may benefit what you will need to do in the future. Or just start something fun. Learn how to embroider, that is what my goal is. I want to start embroidering my babies clothes and pictures.  Maybe you need to learn how to cook for the misses or mister. Learn how to be an extreme couponer! Learn how to save money.

In all that you do make sure you continue to pray that God give you strength and patience as you wait for Him to move in your life. Thank Him for all the moves big and small that He is doing in your world. Pray that your will aligns with His will and that what you are waiting for is what He wants for you or maybe it is something better.

Always remember that an idle mind is the devil’s play place. Do not sit and worry about what God is doing and why. Remember that our time is not God’s time.

What are some of your ways to wait on God in the mean time?


My Little Box of Hope; While I am Waiting

My hope has been and will continue to be that my hubby and I will have a natural birth. I am believing God that He will give me the desires of my heart. Psalms 37: 3-7 is one of my faith and hope verses. 
Trust in the Lord and do good;

    dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;

    trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
    your vindication like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord

    and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
    when they carry out their wicked schemes.

When I read this, I see things I must do and the promises of God for me.

It says to trust in the Lord and do good, sometimes it is hard to do both but I shake myself off and continue to seek the Kingdom.

I know that if I continue to take delight in the Lord, His Promise: He will give me the desires of my heart. 

I know that if I commit my way to the Lord, trust in Him, this is His promise to me: HE WILL MAKE MY RIGHTEOUS REWARD SHINE LIKE THE DAWN

I have to just be patient in my waiting and not get upset when people get the rewards I desire to have when doing it outside the will of GOD. 

My Father, God, is telling me, His child to obey and trust and do right and He promises me that He will bless me exceedingly abundantly above all I could ask or think. 

So while I patiently wait, I decided to start a hope chest or a little box of Hope. My mother once told me when I was hoping to move out to start buying things I want to put in my new place. I bought dishes and I still have them.
Right now my box of hope is for Baby Corbett. I haven't told my hubby though. It's personal between God and I and I guess those that read this. But while I am waiting... this wonderful song popped up into my head! Love this by John Walker.

In my box I put some newborn onesies and said God, "with this, we seal the deal" So now I wait. 

This all came because I was two days late and had pregnancy symptoms but ended up not pregnant. I am not fretting though. Was a little sad but then my life passed before my eyes and I had to be thankful for: my life, my health, the strengthening of my marriage, awesome job, great church and family.

All I know is that God is not a man so He can't lie. The promises He will keep. 

Trusting, believing and waiting,


Thursday, May 29, 2014

What's In a Name...

My name is not a popular one, Cicely. I couldn't find it at souvenir shops, there wasn't a license plate or pencils I could access easily like a Elizabeth or Ashley. I was a little disheartened yet I got over it. I did not like my name for the longest. Many people made fun of it, called me Cielly(The Color Purple) and said it sounded like a slave name. I just brushed it off. 

I had just started high school and was like I can be anybody I wanted to be. I decided to go by my middle name, Renee. My classmates and teammates all called me Renee. One game night, one of my teammates went up to my mom and said, "You are Renee's mom" My mom said "who?" The whole year I went back and forth and couldn't make the name Renee stick. I remember the last day of school this handsome sophomore or junior named Quincy (Rest in Peace) asked me my name and I said "Cicely" He looked at me and said, "That is such a beautiful name" I will never forget that and ever since I loved my name. A lot of people really liked my name as well. 

I knew that my name meant "Blind" and I was so confused. I was like what does that mean. My mom always called me "SweCely" and every time she says that she asks me do you know what that means? I would breath heavily and say yes mom, Sweet Cicely. She always said I was a sweet girl. I did more research on my name and found that there is also a plant called Sweet Cicely. 

Sweet Cicely is an attractive plant that is a striking component of herb gardens and hedgerows. 
This early flowering perennial is renowned for its aniseed taste and fragrance. Growing to a height of 90cm, umbels of tiny white flowers appear from spring to early summer. The fern-like leaves are deeply divided and smell of aniseed when crushed. 

Sweet Cicely was formerly a widely cultivated culinary herb, but now only occasionally grown in the herb garden. As a culinary herb it is a valuable sweetener, especially for diabetics and for the many people who are trying to reduce their sugar intake. Used in many savory as well as sweet dishes, it gives a delightful flavour and helps to save almost half the sugar needed. 

I thought that was so cool because my mom did not know about that plant. I firmly believe that what you call someone they will be. Even what you call yourself. I become disheartened when people name their children names that have no meaning. It is like sending them out into the wild. 

In Genesis 35:18 Rachel was having a hard time with her birth, Rachel was about to die, but with her last breath she named the baby Ben-oni (which means "son of my sorrow"). The baby's father, however, called him Benjamin (which means "son of my right hand"). Now imagine the life if the child's name was Ben-oni. He would most likely walk around sorrowfully. May not be entirely true. 

Look at Judges 13:24 Samson, And the woman bare a son, and called his name Samson: and the child grew, and the LORD blessed him. What does Samson mean? "Like the sun; strong"  and yes, he was indeed strong. 

I found out more of my name yesterday as a close friend sent me a message that inspired me greatly and this is my response, this blog. :)

She sent me this:
English Meaning: The name Cicely is an English baby name. In English the meaning of the name Cicely is: A feminine form of Cecil, derived from the Roman clan name Caecilius, which is based on the Latin 'coccus' meaning 'blind'. "Guide for the Blind"

Soul Urge Number: 5
People with this name have a deep inner desire for travel and adventure, and want to set their own pace in life without being governed by tradition.

Expression Number: 3 
People with this name tend to be creative and excellent at expressing themselves. They are drawn to the arts, and often enjoy life immensely. They are often the center of attention, and enjoy careers that put them in the limelight. They tend to become involved in many different activities, and are sometimes reckless with both their energies and with money.
It was all so real! I got really excited when there was more explaining what BLIND meant. A guide for the blind.... I thought that was deep. I am an educator and love to teach and guide people with resources and knowledge. That is funny because that is what all my jobs were a guide. On all my resumes my objective was: Seeking full time position providing education, resources and opportunities. Aint that something.
My Soul Urge number and Expression number is right on point. I express myself through writing. Love the arts. Love to travel and take adventures. I was so blessed to have read this and I thank Grace for sending me this with much encouragement.
I love to write. A couple of weeks ago a Prophet (Whom I have never met) prophesied over my life saying I am supposed to be writing, Writing children's books, plays and more. That was so on point as well because for a while I was like I really want to start writing children's books. So get ready! I renamed my blog CicelyRenee because I really embody that name bt also know I am much more than just my name. God has put in me purpose and whatever He calls me, I am that.

So my question to you is:
What does your name mean?
What are people calling you? What do you call yourself?

Peace and Blessings,

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

I was doing LOVE so wrong

Love is one of my favorite things to do, I love to give love, I loved to receive it, I loved to do it. And then I saw this scripture and realized I was doing it all wrong. I read it over and over thinking yes I am good! I am patient, I am kind, etc... yet I read it again and I really wasn't doing it right. I can be patient sometimes when I know the end is going to be great and I know all about what I will get. Yes, I am kind to those who are kind to me... I ignored those who had done me wrong.

Envy, I slowly crept into an envious state as I got older and was not getting what I wanted but everyone else was... there goes that patience out the window. Love does not boast, I can say this, being honest, I don't boast in public... Sometimes I do think I am better than others and I struggle with that because I do not want to be that way. I cannot stand when people do that and I definitely do not truly think highly of myself. Love does not dishonor others... this I played and twisted it... I did not dishonor yet I did not give honor to whom it was due either. That's that envious spirit creeping in.

It does not keep a record of wrongdoing... this right here is what got me. I remember everything, all the hurt, all the actions, all the facial expressions and when that pops in my head I go down a path and refuse to give my love like I am supposed to. This is my biggest struggle right here in relationships, work places and more. I literally get a scar from that burn weeks ago even so many years ago. Every time I glance at it I feel the pain and put up a block to restrict the love.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. But who's truth... my truth is what I was following. It wasn't too far from the bible but you know how people like to bend the truth to make it fit them? Yes that is what I was doing.

It always PROTECTS, TRUSTS, HOPES, PERSEVERES, that is how I wanted to receive the love but I wasn't giving it. I was selfish and only wanted what others could give me with my distorted view of what love really was.

I am so glad God is not like us because His love never fails.

As I get older and mentally and emotionally prepared to enter this next pivotal time in life (hitting the big 30) I definitely want to start doing life differently and more effectively. I want to do love so much better. I want to be better than my past.

We all can do a little bit better everyday.

Time to start doing this right!

God Bless,
Cicely Renee

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Hemp Seed Oil- Could it change my fibroids naturally?

After an interaction with an older woman at work she told me she had a dream about me and that God spoke to her saying Hemp Seed oil for fibroids. She said she did not know exactly how it works but to google it. I googled these words: "Hemp oil fibroids" and found this video.

I kept on researching and reading comments. So I ran and got some. I have taken it for a month now swallowing 2 tbsp with herbal tea. She used green tea and I read that green tea is not the best for women trying to get pregnant. This is because both green and black tea decrease the body’s ability to absorb folic acid, a very important B-vitamin crucial to a baby’s development in the beginning stages of pregnancy. - See more here.  

I have also found that I really like the hemp seeds and I eat that. I put it in my shakes/smoothies and soy yogurt. 

I have noticed changes in my monthly flow. Because of my fibroids I would be extremely heavy for 3-4 days and 2 light days. Now it has been 2 heavy days and 2 light days. Which is so awesome for me.

I recently went to the doctor May 7 and they did an ultrasound where they measured my firboids. I had five of them ranging from 4.1-5.2 cm which are pretty large. Also, my uterus is enlarged due to the fibroids. They said I am the size of a 15 week pregnant woman. I GET TIRED OF PEOPLE LOOKING AND POINTING :) Its all good though.

So I will keep you posted on the progress of this. 

Sunday, May 11, 2014

A Poem for All Mothers

My favorite animal is an elephant. Something about them drew me to them. I remember in high school and middle school I would find little elephant figurines and my one favorite one was the one that had a baby inside.

I did a little research and found out that mother Elephants are amazing in caring for children. Their pregnancy lasts for 22 months. They deliver one of the largest animals weighing about 250 pounds. When the elephant is born it is completely blind dependent on the mother for everything. Another fact amazed me… Elephants have a great support system. They have many many babysitters. This group of elephants are called “Allmothers” reminds me a bit about our society and how we women have that innate trait to care and help others out. We love to nurture. They protected the child when the mother had to go and eat as much as she could to make milk for the baby.

This poem is for the All mothers…. 
Thank you! 

As a child I looked around and there were so many women around and they all loved me and they all whooped me. This is for all of them… the mother figures in our lives the ones with and without children of their own but loving and caring for them just the same.
These words I speak are filled with gratitude of the multitude of people just like me. We just want to thank you.

All mother, you are the aunties, the ones that never had children of your own. Your embrace was a fun one. You were the one that let us try things that of course our mother would sigh about. You spoiled us, your love was different for us. Thank you

All mothers, you are the woman that stepped into the motherly role when we left home that spiritual mother, when we joined a new church out of state. You are a God send. You were the one that gracefully claimed us as your own. You invite us to family functions and help relieve the sadness of the absence of our real mother. You spoke to us as your own and we respected and loved you for that. Thank you.
All mothers, you are that older sister and the cousin, our first best friend. I told you everything and you told my mother but would forget I was mad at you in an hour and back to the bond that just grew and grew. Thank you.

All mothers, you are that sister friend the one that knew right from wrong and kept it real with us. Your presence we looked up to. The one that made sure we were in line. Your words of wisdom and your actions a woman of integrity and honor. You made us think twice about what we were going to do. Thank you

All mothers, you are the God mother, my mom’s good friend. She spoke highly of you, was in awe of you and knew I would be protected, cared for and loved by you. Gentle and meek your spirit is truly the essence of a proverbs woman. Words spoken out of love. Thank you.

All mothers, you are the Grandmother, the most grand of them all. Mean too very strict. You chastised us when we did wrong. You kept us in place, comforted by your warm embrace. Thank you.

All mothers, you are the adoptive mother and the step mother and the mother in love. An adjustment to get used to and what a journey we have. You accepted me and wanted me enough to play such a strong important role in our lives. Thank you.

All mothers, you are the birth mom who carried this living and growing child. You sacrificed so much for us your children. You went away and worked so hard to feed us. You learned as much as you could along the way. Caring for your child looking in our eyes and seeing a part of you as you held us in your arms. Sweet comforting words soothed our souls. Along with those long conversations that helped shape us. Thank you.

This is for the All mothers the bond only women know of. Blood maybe absent but we feel you just the same as you stepped into the role of caregivers, the nurturers so compassionate and caring.